Thursday, 25 June 2009

• i didn't look this morning

  i was too afraid... i don't want to go up... it makes me feel worthless... i know i shouldn't feel that way but i do... i just is the way i am...  i also hate it when he gets all not ok... i feel bad cuz i don't know what to do... i mean i'd love to talk but i don't want to make him go off... i just don't know what to do about it... we don't have much alone time and id really like some... i know it kinda sounds selfish but i like being alone with him... we talk and giggle... and just have fun...sometimes i wonder if i should even count us as dating... we basically act like friends that kiss every now and then... it usually doesn't bother me.. but we've been dating for almost 2 months.... i start most of the kissing too... so i'm just wondering if he even likes me or just wants to be friends... or maybe he's just afraid to start things but from the way he talks he isnt... i don't know i just feel like shit and want to have a big talk soon... i think it'll be after i get back from camping this weekend... i might as well get the pain over with before i fall even further in to what will become love if i don't stop myself

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